Five Minute Friday again! Yay! I was a little too excited that this week’s prompt was ‘tired.’ I’ve got some things to say about ‘tired’ at this point!!!
I remember Rich Mullins saying the following: “Everyone always says, ‘You look so tired – can we pray for you?’ I’m like, ‘Man, if I didn’t look tired, you should pray for me. I would’ve had to have made a deal with the devil to not look tired. I deserve to look this way.'”
I don’t know about you, but that particular comment resonates with me. (I always loved Rich’s take on the world). Man, I deserve to look this way.
Deployments are a time of perpetual tired. It’s partly my own fault. I stay up too late. My husband isn’t here to remind me to go to bed, and trudging upstairs to face that empty spot is so hard some nights, so I watch Netflix late into the night, or plink away on blogs or Facebook. I’m tired! And this is only the beginning.
But there’s also just the sheer attrition of it all. The solo-parenting. Being the only one ‘in charge.’ Not to mention the exhaustion that comes from just plain missing the man who I love all the time. Am I tired? Yep.
It’s so often seemed like one thing after another around here. I think it’s that way for everyone really, but I think our family has hit some biggies. Do I look tired? Yeah. I deserve to look tired. We’ve been through a lot.
I think it’s a good thing though. I’m tired because I’m LIVING. My heart is entrenched in missing this man that I love… We’ve survived some gruelling things in the eight years of our marriage. Life has been hard and that makes me tired, but I’m tired because I have LIVED. FULLY.
It’s a good reason to be tired, don’t you think?