http://digtoesin.wordpress.com/2008/06/05/personal-bumper-sticker-irony/ Stubbing my toes on Holy. Mon, 28 Dec 2009 22:17:48 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 http://digtoesin.wordpress.com/2008/06/05/personal-bumper-sticker-irony/#comment-5580 Tracy Wed, 11 Jun 2008 04:56:40 +0000 http://digtoesin.wordpress.com/?p=354#comment-5580 I get so caught up in the shoulds. I should not feel this way. I should feel that. It could be worse, etc. It seems I am almost constantly judging my feelings as wrong, insignificant, or other. I am rarely comfortable feeling what I am feeling. Thought provoking words from you - thank you. I get so caught up in the shoulds. I should not feel this way. I should feel that. It could be worse, etc. It seems I am almost constantly judging my feelings as wrong, insignificant, or other. I am rarely comfortable feeling what I am feeling. Thought provoking words from you – thank you.

]]> http://digtoesin.wordpress.com/2008/06/05/personal-bumper-sticker-irony/#comment-5573 Tim Fri, 06 Jun 2008 01:27:36 +0000 http://digtoesin.wordpress.com/?p=354#comment-5573 Fifteen years ago I went through major depression. Just when I thought I was coming around I had a major relapse. It cost me everything I had worked for up to that point... job, family, possesions... freaking everything. The medication that my doctor put me on left me unable to feel anything. I was literally dead man walking. People would tell me how to feel, would suggest what to do and would try to tell me that they understood (with I knew they patently did not). It took three years to recover. Some of the effects of the medication were permanent. One thing I know for sure. I am the only person who really knows and can own how I feel. In fact, realizing and acting on that fact is what has brought me any recovery since that point. Owning how I feel and moderating the effect of that in the way I respond to the world is my only way of maintaining mental and spiritual equilibrium. Fifteen years ago I went through major depression. Just when I thought I was coming around I had a major relapse. It cost me everything I had worked for up to that point… job, family, possesions… freaking everything. The medication that my doctor put me on left me unable to feel anything. I was literally dead man walking. People would tell me how to feel, would suggest what to do and would try to tell me that they understood (with I knew they patently did not). It took three years to recover. Some of the effects of the medication were permanent. One thing I know for sure. I am the only person who really knows and can own how I feel. In fact, realizing and acting on that fact is what has brought me any recovery since that point. Owning how I feel and moderating the effect of that in the way I respond to the world is my only way of maintaining mental and spiritual equilibrium.

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